April 25, 2025

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I cried a lot this morning.  Scared for Marlon's mental health.  He just shut down.  He was nauseous, he was in pain, tired, and emotionally done.  His tongue hurt, mostly from where the teeth on the inside bite into it, it hurts to swallow because of the tongue and his throat.  His stomach hurts a lot from the acid reflux.  He ate a bite of egg, some cereal, two of his six pills, and then threw up.  After that, nothing.  He refused to drink, eat, or communicate.  Just sat there not moving for a long while.  I panicked and cried.  I fall too easily into despair.

Eventually he fell asleep.  The doctors decided to hook up his IV again and start giving him a lot of his medication, liquids, and nutrition that way. 

He had a hearing test and that turned out great.  Very good hearing.  One good thing. 

He tried to eat a little dinner but grimaced with every bite.  Everything hurt so much.  At least by this time, he was a little more talkative.

I think they had been thinking about letting him go home for the weekend but he isn't stable enough. 

I remember this from last time.  He doesn't make an effort and everything looks worse. 


More flowers.  These are ones we have right now in the room.  I didn't think flowers were allowed but no one has said anything.  Outside, several trees are blooming, daffodils, and other flowers are sharing some colour.  It's greening up

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